I have been feeling really down for the whole week. It is as though the world came crashing down on me. Like a sudden whirlwind, never stopping - almost like a tornado crashing into my face. It is not that serious - I am in one of my most emotional periods. And I can't help it anymore.
So I took to my bible - and I brought out a few verses to comfort me through this storm.
Psalm 138:7 even if I walk into trouble, You will keep my life safe. You will put our Your hand against the anger of those who hate me, And Your right hand will save me.
Lamentations 3: 31-33 For the Lord will not turn away from a man forever. For if He causes sorrow, He will have loving-pity because of His great loving-kindness. He does not want to cause trouble or sorrow for the children of men.
Psalm 22:14 wait for the Lord. Be strong. Let your heart be strong. Yes, wait for the Lord.
Psalm 71:20 You have shown me many troubles of all kinds. But you will make me strong again. And You will bring me up again from the deep of the earth.
Psalm 91:10-11 nothing will hurt you. No trouble will come near your tent. For He will tell His angels to care for you and keep you in all of your ways.
Psalm 73:26 my body and my heart may grow weak, but God is the strength of my heart and all I need forever.
It is in times like these that I feel pain. And I am the master of avoidance of pain. There is no point is living in pain zone but somehow somewhere, I am living in the pain of tomorrow, the pain of yesterday and the pain of now. I have to grow stronger.. Mmmhmph.
Friday, January 27, 2012
Thursday, January 19, 2012
I am sick.
Looks like the great Carolyn has fallen sick.
I have been ill for the last 3 weeks - refusing to believe that this will not go away. Tadah, I have finally headed o the doctor and she says I am suffering from Bronchitis.
:(
I have been ill for the last 3 weeks - refusing to believe that this will not go away. Tadah, I have finally headed o the doctor and she says I am suffering from Bronchitis.
:(
Monday, January 16, 2012
HAPPY GIRL.
I am seriously a happy girl.
Bought tickets for wicked, and tickets for F'friends. It feels like the good ol' days where I would spend days watching theatre, acting or setting up props for it.
Come to think of it, I miss those days. It seems so ever far away.
Why did I give up theatre? I used to love all works of it. From scripting, to acting, to directing, to preparing... It's this satisfaction we get when we work our butts off for 6 months to put up a play all so the audience can enjoy. But to be honest, life is like a stage. And we are all actors in it. So it looks like I never lost touch with the industry. Teehee.
Bought tickets for wicked, and tickets for F'friends. It feels like the good ol' days where I would spend days watching theatre, acting or setting up props for it.
Come to think of it, I miss those days. It seems so ever far away.
Why did I give up theatre? I used to love all works of it. From scripting, to acting, to directing, to preparing... It's this satisfaction we get when we work our butts off for 6 months to put up a play all so the audience can enjoy. But to be honest, life is like a stage. And we are all actors in it. So it looks like I never lost touch with the industry. Teehee.
Saturday, January 14, 2012
7th January: God is Good!
I am proud to say I am now a devoted Christian. Praise the Lord for all the great things he has done for me.
I find faith in the most miraculous of ways. I find I do too little for my journey with God but then again, I am a young Christian. I haven't had the chance to actually divulge and spend time with the word, to understand it, and then finally to spread the word. And so before I forget, I shall pen down what the service was about last week in Church.
#1 When you are not reminded of God's goodness, you tend to distort your idea of God's goodness.
Many a times - people believe that prayer works in such a way that God should and MUST give you all that you want. Afterall, "Ask and you shall receive" came from the bible, no? But have they forgotten that sometimes, God will not help you if you don't help yourself. It's the idea that a friend of mine, A, brought up awhile back when we had this debate on God's ideology. When someone passes their exams, they say "It was all of God's doings" But A thinks it was all of YOUR own doing. I can't deny the truth in his statement. But I'd like to add on that it is in thanking God at every aspect of your life's journey. It's involving Jesus in our every day life that is important. People often point their fingers at God and say "God, why were you not there for me when I needed you?" When they fail their exams, lose a sale, get dumped, they often say "God, where were you?" But really, did you help yourself? Simply put, God will not help you if you don't help yourself. When you involve God in every aspect of your life, you tend to see the miracles He gives to you more than those times you hardly see Him around.
#2 If God's creation is but a snippet of God's goodness, then surely this is how heaven would look like
I am facing a painful situation that I hold dear to my heart. Left, right, center, I am often questioned about heaven and about Christianity. But I can't hold the Christians to blame - the reason why they forcefully share the Gospel with the non-Christians are truly because they want to share the good news. They want to tell people about the 2nd coming of Christ and how life will be without Him but the non-Christians shun this thought because of the after-life they believe in. Hell and beyond.
Afterall, John 3:16 - For God so love the world that He gave His only begotten son so that those who believes in Him shall not perish and will have eternal, everlasting life.
Correct me if I am wrong - but I am trying my best to memorise verses.
It brings me back to one last point,
#3 When your heart is far away, when you do not walk with the Lord like you used to, God has to discipline us
Like a father to us, surely God will see that sometimes, we backslide. We do things even we are ashamed of. If we can't control our lives, then I am sure someone has to take control of it and slap us back to reality. So this is what God does. And although we are having bad times, God will always be there for us.
So this week's verse to memorize is:
Psalms 23:6 Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all of my days and I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever.
I find faith in the most miraculous of ways. I find I do too little for my journey with God but then again, I am a young Christian. I haven't had the chance to actually divulge and spend time with the word, to understand it, and then finally to spread the word. And so before I forget, I shall pen down what the service was about last week in Church.
#1 When you are not reminded of God's goodness, you tend to distort your idea of God's goodness.
Many a times - people believe that prayer works in such a way that God should and MUST give you all that you want. Afterall, "Ask and you shall receive" came from the bible, no? But have they forgotten that sometimes, God will not help you if you don't help yourself. It's the idea that a friend of mine, A, brought up awhile back when we had this debate on God's ideology. When someone passes their exams, they say "It was all of God's doings" But A thinks it was all of YOUR own doing. I can't deny the truth in his statement. But I'd like to add on that it is in thanking God at every aspect of your life's journey. It's involving Jesus in our every day life that is important. People often point their fingers at God and say "God, why were you not there for me when I needed you?" When they fail their exams, lose a sale, get dumped, they often say "God, where were you?" But really, did you help yourself? Simply put, God will not help you if you don't help yourself. When you involve God in every aspect of your life, you tend to see the miracles He gives to you more than those times you hardly see Him around.
#2 If God's creation is but a snippet of God's goodness, then surely this is how heaven would look like
I am facing a painful situation that I hold dear to my heart. Left, right, center, I am often questioned about heaven and about Christianity. But I can't hold the Christians to blame - the reason why they forcefully share the Gospel with the non-Christians are truly because they want to share the good news. They want to tell people about the 2nd coming of Christ and how life will be without Him but the non-Christians shun this thought because of the after-life they believe in. Hell and beyond.
Afterall, John 3:16 - For God so love the world that He gave His only begotten son so that those who believes in Him shall not perish and will have eternal, everlasting life.
Correct me if I am wrong - but I am trying my best to memorise verses.
It brings me back to one last point,
#3 When your heart is far away, when you do not walk with the Lord like you used to, God has to discipline us
Like a father to us, surely God will see that sometimes, we backslide. We do things even we are ashamed of. If we can't control our lives, then I am sure someone has to take control of it and slap us back to reality. So this is what God does. And although we are having bad times, God will always be there for us.
So this week's verse to memorize is:
Psalms 23:6 Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all of my days and I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever.
I miss writing
As always.
It is always this sting in my heart - a pain in which I endure. I miss writing. Truthfully. I blame myself for having the lack of discipline to sit in front of a computer and tap away my fingers. I blame myself for not finding the time to read or write. Both of which I used to do endearingly. In fact, I used to do it all the time - so much so that it was always a daily routine for me. But what really happened?
I guess 21 came, and then 22, and now I'm turning 23.
The only times I'm tapping away on my laptop is when I am rushing through a proposal - rushing items for clients, and doing what my job requires of me - in fact, sucks out of me. I miss the carefree life I used to have. Alas, we all have to grow up one day. The only mindless thing I do nowadays to while my life away is to watch videos after videos after videos. Of TV series like running man, gossip girl, etc.
It's the only thing that keeps me afloat amidst this drowning life.
Ah, my laptop just almost crashed this whole blog post I was going to put up - what choice would I have been left with? I think I would have just 'X' the screen and continue on to do my work.
The question is - Should I start writing somewhere else?
It is always this sting in my heart - a pain in which I endure. I miss writing. Truthfully. I blame myself for having the lack of discipline to sit in front of a computer and tap away my fingers. I blame myself for not finding the time to read or write. Both of which I used to do endearingly. In fact, I used to do it all the time - so much so that it was always a daily routine for me. But what really happened?
I guess 21 came, and then 22, and now I'm turning 23.
The only times I'm tapping away on my laptop is when I am rushing through a proposal - rushing items for clients, and doing what my job requires of me - in fact, sucks out of me. I miss the carefree life I used to have. Alas, we all have to grow up one day. The only mindless thing I do nowadays to while my life away is to watch videos after videos after videos. Of TV series like running man, gossip girl, etc.
It's the only thing that keeps me afloat amidst this drowning life.
Ah, my laptop just almost crashed this whole blog post I was going to put up - what choice would I have been left with? I think I would have just 'X' the screen and continue on to do my work.
The question is - Should I start writing somewhere else?
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